Friday, 25 October 2013

Unanswerable Cirlces

I’m way too caring for my own good. I look out for those that I consider close to me,and I’m the one that ends up getting treated like shit.
I try to help,but it just gets thrown straight back into my face,yet,I still haven’t learned my lesson. Definitely disheartening to see the only person you thought you could trust, sharing your secrets with others. 
The person you care so much about and thought was your only true mate, turn around and backstab you. I guess the way you treat others isn’t always how your going to be treated in life.
" What happened to the reckless nights
Of driving through the city
Windows down and arms raised high
As if we were kings of our time?
Now you’ve knocked down the crown
And all I have left is the bitter taste in my mouth
When I called you and asked for five minutes of your time

You left me to hang when I needed you on the line
Is that what you call loyalty?
Is that what you call respect?
You left me tired and alone,
And then you fucking left "
No matter how much you think you know someone, No ones what they seem.
It’s funny how the person you’d take a bullet for tends to always be the one behind the gun.

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Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Hair and makeup times

This is the very first time i've done my hair like those famous chick on Tumblr, well i'm not famous tho lol
And i've done my makeup by myself, it takes 10 minutes to use the Mascara because i always accidentally hurt my eyes.
 And Voila, the final results.
 I'm not an expert :p
excuse the "fan" behind me :p

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Where i spent my time

Woohoo 
it's me back in blogworld again
i'm in a very very moody condition this week , i've had a lot in mind.
My cat having a massive surgery, my phone is stop working forever and i have to find a new one immediately.
 So when i get back home, all i do is just listening some good tunes and staring outside the windows, pushing people away. My anxiety level become more and more worst than before.
 I don't go out anymore, and this is just a little peek of my favourite corner on my room. maybe next time, you'll get the full version of a room tour.


The amount of books i have is shocking, huh

It gets a little messier than before woops

A sneak peek from my windows

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Thursday, 10 October 2013

Pakai Bahasa Indonesia

Ada teman bertanya "Kenapa blog mu gak pake bahasa indonesia aja? biar lebih mudah dibaca. kan gak semua orang ngerti Bahasa Inggris" Baiklah, Kawan. Apapun yang kamu mau, meski aku juga gak tau seberapa jumlah yang baca blog ku. Aku berkenalan dengan dunia blog dari SMA kelas 1, waktu itu masih suka nebeng di Komputer Lab sekolah, Internet pun tidak se-kencang sekarang. Biasanya aku setia dengan Diary, meski cape nulis nya tiap hari tapi bagiku menuangkan perasaan itu lebih baik daripada aku harus menyimpan nya sampai berdebu di dalam hati dan pikiran. Dulu pernah punya 3 jilid Diary, dan itu semua isinya penuh, bayangin aja aku kelas 6 SD sudah ganjen curhat ke Diary, dan itu terus berlanjut sampai aku SMA dan akhirnya kenal yang nama nya Blog. Aku dulu punya banyak blog, tapi kadang lupa password atau yang parah lupa apa emailnya, akhirnya terus gonta ganti dari Blogger, Wordpress, Blog.com, sampai weebly semua aku coba, dan ternyata ujung-ujung nya balik ke Blogger juga, karena lebih simple dan mudah di otak atik nya.

Dan sampai sekarang aku pun masih punya 3 diary , yang satu buat puisi,prosa, atau sekedar coretan random, yang kedua buat nyatet segala hal penting yang aku alamin baik itu cerita sedih, bahagia, kesaal dan lain-lain, yah yang berkaitan sama perasaan lah. Nah yang ketiga itu semacam Letter Book, atau buku yang isinya kumpulan "Surat" yang aku tujukan untuk orang-orang terdekatku yang sudah ada di Surga, gak ngerti kenapa aku suka aja kadang ngomong lewat tulisan ke mereka :')

Bagiku, blog adalah saudara yang sering aku ajak cerita, waktuku ku habiskan nulis dan nulis, terserah deh nulis apa tapi menulis mampu mengurangi penat dikepala setelah seharian sibuk ini itu. Aku gak punya inspirasi tertentu, bagiku nulis ya nulis, cuma memindahkan apa yang ada di pikiran kedalam kalimat demi kalimat, aku mungkin tidak se-puitis mereka yang suka baca buku, biasanya ngaruh gitu ya, orang yang suka baca buku pasti gaya bahasa dan tulisan nya intelek banget, beda deh dengan aku yang baca buku cuma senin kamis doang. Gaya bahasaku suka ngaur dan kadang kurang pantas--IYEE NYADAR GUE! Aku ga pernah bisa begitu lebay nya menggambarkan sebuah kejadian dengan tutur bahasa yang kelewat indah dan kadang jadinya sulit dimengerti. Maaf, saya hanya anak manusia yang pengen ngeluarin unek-unek dengan sedikit berkreasi melalui tulisan. 

Dan itulah kenapa aku akhirnya memutuskan postingan kali ini harus berbahasa Indonesia, bukan nya sok inggris, aku juga tau inggris ku ga jago-jago amet, tapi kebetulan.. aku suka sama bahasa inggris dan entah kenapa rasanya enakan menuangkan pikiran pake bahasa inggris, tinggal ngalir aja gitu. Dan kesulitanku selalu dobel kalau pakai bahasa Indonesia, Selain harus nyesuaikan kalimatnya, aku juga harus bisa menemukan kalimat yang pas biar bisa nyambung, pernah sih bikin posting bahasa indonesia yang ada malah gak nyambung jadinya. Dan bayangkan kalau aku posting pakai Bahasa "Dirimu" dan "Diriku" atau jadi Kakanda dan Adinda, kesan nya baku banget, sulit. SUER! (tuh nulis swear nya juga pake ejaan bahasa indonesia)

Jadi, disinilah aku. Menulis blog dengan bahasa indonesia. Sebenarnya mau bahasa Indonesia, mau bahasa inggris, china atau apapun yang penting aku udah bisa ngeluarkan beban dipikiran dengan tulisan, sebenarnya udah lebih dari cukup. gak dibaca pun tidak apa, dan kalau ada yang iseng-iseng nyangkut browsing dan kebaca pun ya makasih, inilah blog aku, bahasanya apa adanya. mudahan yang baca nya juga ga ribet ya, karena yang nulis udah ribet soalnya. hehehe.

Jadi, sampai jumpa di postingan selanjutnya :) xox
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Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Annoying things

It's been a while. That's what i always say as an opening when i abandoned my blog. I'm not in a blog-mood recently.
But hey i'm back and about to say things that Annoys me.

1. Staring
Wherever you are (Public trasnport, Department Store, Supermarket, Bookstore etc) There is always someone that couldn't keep the eyes out of you. For some people it could be flattering or just totally fine. but for me it's A FUCKING RUDE behavior. I can't stand on 10 years old kid staring at me like i'm an Alien or something, and sometimes i found someone staring at me with their Jaws open, or sometimes there's a group of certain people who looks at me from top to toe just to make sure that there's nothing wrong with my outfit. I HATE THAT. A lot.
2.  Laughing out Loud
Sometimes it is fine to laugh at something funny, but when you're in a public place please keep it to yourself. I always wanna punch people in the face if they were laughing non-stop LOUDLY. I once having a ME-times at the mall, trying to see some cute dress for me and then there's a bunch of girls who dressed like they've been drown in a lake of rainbow--coming into the store and keep talking about a guy. And they always laugh like it's the funniest thing in the world, like there's a laugh competitions or something. At first, all i do is avoiding them, but the noise they made is unbelievably loud and annoying. They ignored people who get annoyed by their stupid drama story that wasn't even that funny i think.. And in that moment, i swear i really wanna punch their face or at least hoping they'll choking and died. 
3.  Slow-walking
Slug people. That's how i described people who always walking so slowly at the mall. And they acting like its okay to walk fucking slow at the mall with a lot of bags whilst talking to their friends on the phone like NO ONE behind them. And Oh my god, i seriously can't stand it when i'm in a rush and people in front of me walking like a snail. I always wanna push them hard. Don't you hate it when people do that?

4.  Being watched
Sometimes i love windows shopping even though i'm not a fashionista, but windows shopping is always fun things to do. But what happen when the store clerk always followed you around while you  windows shopping at their store? Like you're gonna start stealing everything. That's stupid, you keep following us all around, introducing your best-selling stuff and what most people do is just finally leaving the store and pissed off! 

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