On the Anti-Bullying Day, i Posted my old scars on Instagram, Not trying to be dramatic but i want everybody knows what i did in the past is wrong. I used to feel down easily and I was the Victim of Bullying in High school. I was so stressed and Depressed at the first, i cut myself too much to hide from my reality pain. My family crisis getting worst that day but i never told it to my close friends because i'm afraid they'll avoiding me. I go to school with smile everyday cuz i want every kids at school thinks i'm the most fun girl to be around with. I joined the Volly Team,English Club and Dance Club to makes more friends, but thats making it worst. All the Jealous Seniors who Bullies me called me names, they do anything to bring me down,some are worst.. and i pretend to be igorant but it hurts deep inside. I always feel bad about myself since then.I started cutting again and it became addictive. I attempted suicide 3 times that year. I tried choking myself, drowning myself and overdosing. I couldn’t take it. I slit my wrist more and more. I almost hit a vain.I have been a victim of bullying for 2 years in HS.I even feel so bad about myself since i was younger.. As a little girl growing up, I’ve wanted to be the girl with the long hair and the nice figure. I didn’t start to sense my low self-esteem until I reached the age of 10. I’ve started to noticed that I wasn’t skinny like the other little girls and I didn’t see myself as a beautiful image.In the first middle school,By the time, I was still quiet, shy and extremely insecure. I soon began to get picked on again. i think i go in the same school, where everybody is so filthy rich, Posh, and all they have is fancy stuff, and i'm in the class where's everybody just ignored me at the first, i saw all the rich became friends easily with others, so i made a story about me is one of the Rich one (Bad idea ever).There's always a MEAN GIRL in the class, She always talks about how much fancy stuff she had , and how she always put me down, and the words that comes out from her mouth always hurt me, she probably it was ok to making fun of others but i don't think its something i have to dealt. and on the 2nd year, i began to cut myself again. Everyone on the class doesn't know that i suffered from Personality disorders that day, they just know i'm in a hospital for an Appendix Surgery..Whilst I have never been physically abused, I have been teased, harassed and socially isolated.The consequences of the years of bullying are serious.Depression. Fear of humans. Suicidal thoughts. Suicide attempts. And so much more.It takes a lot of courage to stand before your bullies and tell them exactly how you feel. Not every victim of bullying will have that opportunity to do so. What is important is that they shouldn’t have to. Sometimes I think there would be less bullying if we were all blind. So much bullying, teasing and outright racism comes from not understanding or being comfortable with what we see.The only way to stop being victimized by bullies is to ignore them. Although a deeply disturbed individual will not be thwarted by being ignored. Attempting to defend yourself will often play into their already demented minds and make your situation significantly worse. Confronting the bully can sometimes escalate into physical violence or even more rumors being spread.well..
I just wanna inspire others and now i finally wake up with a smile on my face knowing I am
loved and still alive on this planet and I will not end my life over
anybody. I am glad they did it to me because it made me who I am today.
Just because I had a negative past, I am not gonna have a negative
future.
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