Dear July
It's almost in the middle of the month and i still can't find a better way to celebrate the days with you.
i've always wanted to write with you, especially for this last couple days.
but the procrastination demons inside me is just too strong, sorry about that, July.
Well i finally got a free day from work fr almost 2 weeks, and yay for that. it's time to find some missing piece in my life. i want to find my passions about something again, maybe started with crafting, i don't know.. we'll figured it out later.
On July 13. I never feel so devastated in my life. because that day take me back to 6 years ago when i lost my best friend, Nadya. So, i decided to visit her house, just to remembering things that i've been missed this whole times, and its very nice to catch up with her sister,Bella. She's all grown up now and it's amazing how they both looking similar. So, i borrow the old album that Nadya's keep on our early years in high school.
And i looking back to those old times together, how people in it are just changes these days. To see how weird, ugly and awkward we are on some photos makes me cringe and smiles at the same time, I mean, look at us now! We're all trying to cover up the real us with makeups, fashion and stuff. I still remember that i thought i was so cool with my short hair, and now i'm looking on those old photos again, i feel so sorry about my younger self. Everybody on those old photographs is having their life changes, and i still feel the same way about myself.. insecure about how i look. And i saw Nadya's photos from time to time since we're in Primary school until we're in college.She's not change, apparently. The Beauty inside her is reflecting through her smile and her eyes. I wonder how she's gonna look on this day if she were here right now, ugh so stunning, of course.
I love capturing the memories about her with my heart, because memories will fade if you don't save it in your heart. Memories is now i have since she left. Those old album is my reminder, all the good times we had, all the fights we've had, and all the laughs we shared. That precious moment is EVERYTHING to me. i don't wanna forget it. I don't wanna forget her.
So, July
You mean so much to me , i hope you always come visits me every year. To be my reminder about my old memories i've had with my best friend. i'm afraid at time i get older, i'm gonna slowly sinking and forget some of memories i had. so i hope you don't mind to be my favourite reminder.
Thanks for the memories, July.
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