Crafty Weekend, No make-up and Resigning

I always be the kind of girl who has a very low self esteem, because i always find something wrong with myself whether Emotionally and Psychically. Like when i woke up in the morning, i see myself in the mirror and see that little black dot on my face because some terrible acne, or how i hate my eyes because its so big like its gonna pop out! 

i tell you about how it feels to have low self esteem. Carrying low-self esteem around all your life is like trying to go on a long, hilly walking adventure and going out with a 100kg weight in your rucksack when other people have packed light. You’re not going to enjoy the trip as much as the others; you may lag behind and be more tired when you reach the peaks, and you are likely to compare yourself negatively to others if you don’t. 

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NEW YEARS!

Hola guys

it's been a while, so this is my first post on 2014. Happy new years everyone! 

So, lets just sit back for a while and think about how times goes by so fast last year, i've been struggling so much on 2013. Leave it anything sad, hard, and all the frown on 2013. let's just moving on to the next chapter on the newly year ahead. 

It sounds so cliche. I never really had a particular resolution every new years. All i want is just survive through the days. Unlike everyone these days who had a bunch of list what the next big step on the paper, i just living the live like i used to be. But maybe increase more courage and smile. I wont make a list because i know that i'm not gonna doing it. 

so instead of being organized , i plan nothing. Like.. i just going with the flow, who knows what i can found in the middle of my journey to survive? Happiness? Sadness? Anger? Joy? Yeah well it could be one of them. All i know is just making my way heading towards the days. 

i'm done with friendship this year, i don't wanna feel the pain of betrayal, backstabbing, and all that two-faced by so-called-friends. But i still socialize tho. Just keeping the distance a little bit to people who try to be close. close enough to destroy me. 

I'm chosing the loneliest way. i know. But its better than being hurt again.

so, all i wanna say. i don't need a lists of the things i should do on 2014. All i have to do is keep moving forward and don't look back. 

Happy 2014. RIP 2013

Regards

Ai

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