I'm not like the others

Yo how's my favourite stalkers doing? Lol Just kidding.

I'm in the mood to write today, it's mainly about me because it's my blog and ain't nobody got time to read. see the point? well, whatever i'll still write anyway.

Today is the day where i wake up and straight to the fridge to drink water and then take a shower, but believe me, in some days, i just sometimes wake up and doing nothing for hours in my bed scrolling over tumblr and twitter and Laughing haha. Or sometimes just rant about the things that bothered me. And Unfortunately, some of you misunderstood the point between Sarcastic Jokes and Rants, so all you do is Indirect me through twitter feed and all i can do is Smile. None of my jokes can easily understood, it tooks a while because i just don't wanna be so easy . lol go back to laptop-- Yeah, i see once, or twice some indirect lines about me everytime i rant about something. I don't mind being judge by you judgemental people, No biggies. But before you say something about me, you should know me better, that most of the times i attempt to rant about anything and everything, I even make sarcastic jokes sometimes. And if i rant about something, it doesn't mean i'm Judging or hating about it. It could be just something that bothered me or something that goes viral even though it doesn't necessary to be viral. And yeah, some of you might totally lost the point of my rants but it's okay, we all need something to be blamed , right. So go ahead blame it on me. I'm getting sick of fights with these separated independents minds. haha in fact, i enjoy every indirect stuff you made for me, i feel flattered. Thank you.

So at the other day, i was talking on the phone with one of old pal who never shows her nose in front of me for almost a year. She said she want to visits me. And Since i don't really busy that day, so we met at my house.

We basically just laugh and talks about how some of us just weirdly changes

Well what can i say, we all have those "Freak" phase when you are born as a Myspace Kid, and then grows up being a Friendster Kid and at the end of the day, you'll notice that you are the Facebook person but you getting bored of your monotonous life and then you ended up living the world of Tumblr, where everything is just beautiful, funny, weird, and Irritating sometimes.. And That is the Phase of life by me. I'm not like the others, i have anxiety disorders and i don't go out often, but the love i have for social media is like.. more than Nutella or Oreo. I make friends to people online from all over the world, i have friends in LA, Egypt, United Kingdom, Singapore etc. Not trying to brag, but i prefer this kind of friendship than the real world friendship. We talked on Skype, having a long long night conversation, we sometimes playing games together, like any other normal friendship activity. its just that we're seperated a thousand miles away. I even have a bestfriend from UK for like 3 years.

Now you can Judge me all you want, i really doesn't mind at all. We all have the urge to Judge someone else's life. Unlike any of you, i spend some times alone in my room with a loud music , internet connection and that's how i pictured my perfect day. I don't like being around new people, i can't stand a rejection.That's most the anxiety kids does. I don't spend money for something unecessary (Ex: Fancy bags, branded clothes..etc) not because i'm a Stingy person, but because i don't need a damn fancy bag to fill my room, i probably just gonna leave it dusty in my closets. And even if i have, i feel weird to posting it on Instagram, like other people do this days. "Hey i have a car" *Upload it to Instagram, "Hey i've got a new branded clothes" *Upload it on instagram with a lot of hashtags. No i'm not that kinda human. I appreciate what i have, i prefer to spend money on food for everyone at my house so i can have quality times with my family, cousins, and friends.

I'm fed up with betrayal. Or being used by a so- called friends. I'm sorry , i might don't living the right path, like you. But, you're not my God, i don't following your rules, so i really don't mind at all of you guys Judging me! Go ahead we can judge each other. Its a fun things to do :)

You know what the best for you, so do it! I know what the best for me so i'll do what i need to do. If we can live just simply like that, we can make a world peace. HAHA! Don't mind other people business, Rant about something that bothered you, as long as you done with that right after, Be humble, stop taking everything seriously, enjoy your life... and keep smiling even if you have such a gloomy days. 

:) Peace

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Too much Fun

It's one of those day where i feel like i need to do something fun to keep me sane, so i decided to accept a company from my friend, we're trying a new app in my laptop to take some awkwards and silly picture. We decided to "Well yeah, maybe a 5 or 6 pictures, i don't know let's give it a try" And we're ended up with almost 100 pictures. :|

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My sister from another mother

That little girl in this picture is my step sister , her name is Bella. I have another step brother, but he's currently living outta town and thank God my Dad wasn't give "Edward" as his name, or i'll be sick with the young twilight characters running around my house lol - anywaaaay.. Bella is 2 years old Girl who loves to eat and sleep very much, and like any other annoying  Two years old kid, she loves to eat sweets.

I never thought i'm gonna have a sister before, i was born as the only child in my family, but then my Dad has another Family, and tadaaa there's Bella. 

We didn't spent too much time together because she doesn't lives here in my house, she lives with My dad. She talks too much, and she got a very weird accents.. 

I Personally don't feel that "Sister connection" with her, not because she's not my mum's child, but because she's not living with me, i don't know much about her, but we used to spent a couple days together and i think she likes me because she told me that she wanna lives with me.

What surprised me is, we have something in common. We hates Eggs, We Likes Cheese, We are stubborn, and We have the same big eyes. 

It feels so good to see this 2 separated family finally forgive each others, i'm fed up with any drama bullshit and fights, so yeah, i think i'm gonna leave it that way. Have to get along with another family member's visit, or sharing my food with my step sister, or stop thinking about Me, and start taking care of any other new family members. i guess i'm gonna start to get to know Bella more.

It's exhausting. Taking care of people, or help them to get fixed and completed, when you're the only one who needs help.

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What happen lately

Well it's been quite long i haven't write here. what can i say, i have a very productive life loljk. I'm overthinking about a lot of things, i never went to cinema for like a month, what happen? I don't know, haha i've spent a lot of cash to something important, i guess.. I'm so Anti-social this month, Being a workaholic myself doing this and that and never stop.

What i'm trying to say is, i feel so alive this day. 

I could spent so many hours in front of computer and never get bored, I rant over everything and its not my fault, people are getting weird and weirder all the time and i hate to watch it. I'm being grumpy when i watch people being annoying. Well, we all have that day when we really want punching people on the face.

I don't have time for beauty care routinity no more. i'm not quite obsessed with it either but ummm.. it something that i have to do sometimes. And i've seen people who taking it seriously like their lifes are depends on it.

Ive done so many Graphic design thingies , and it seems like people loves my work. Thank god, i don't really understand why i choose being Independence Graphic Designer, someone should hire me because i'm pretty good at it. LOL ! self concious.

Just realise that day, me and boyfie haven't fights for a really long time, like a year and a half. It's funny that both of us are finally grown ups in a very good way. We basically just spent time together like a best buddies-ya know like watching Football match together eventhough i never likes football, Sorting out our works together, Cooking dinner together and doing some crappy stuff like singing out loud the old songs. And some people always asking "When will you guys gonna get Married?" I always giving them my poker face.. Here, let me explain..

First

MARRIAGE is not free! it need a lot of Money, and he's not even finished his education program (But, he'll finish it This year i hope) We're 23 and 24. We don't need being in a such a rush, we still have plan everything perfectly so when it finally happens, anything would be perfectly fine ! He still have to work, and i still have a lot of dreams i want to achieve. So, we just gonna handle it to God, Because He's the one who has a Power to make everything happen. I believe in Faith, Fate , and Hope.

Second

I'm a free spirit bitch, i still wanna enjoy my single life, with the responsibility only for myself. I can't imagine my life holding a baby in my new 23 years old, i'm such a butterfinger, i'm afraid it won't work. I still need a little more time to Appreciate everything in my life, to make my parents proud of me, and to do anything i want to do in my younger life. Well as a woman, yes we do wanna get married someday, but it need to be prepared first. 

Third

I'm getting sick of people who keep judging my relationship, 9 years relationship isn't always about having fun , we've been struggle together, fall and happy together. How could you judge us when you're not even walking in our shoes. FUCK OFF! 

i know what;s wrong or right, you don't have to tell. You just have to livin' your own life and shut your damn mouth. YOU KNOW NOTHING! SO BACK OFF!

I've been sorting files on my laptop recently, i don't know i have so many cool movies i haven't watch before, and i ended up watching movies instead of sort the files out haha

I made my "Imaginary" Travel book. It just basically just a big notebook where i pretend to visits any cool country in this world. Pathetic i know. lol Bless the poverty!

So That was really happen lately (Kind of) . I just hope that i quit from being such a professional Procrastinator!

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