The first letter to my best friend FOREVER

Yah, you know i never really great at making things to be more dramatic or poetic. I always fucked things up.

I never good at writing, especially letters. Remember on our second year where i'm too lazy to think to write an advertisement letters for homework? Instead of writing it, i copied all your letters. Yeah, i never really keen with writing. And we all know that you have a secret diary book, that until today i never really know whats in it. And that is an approval. you can write, i can't. Yeah, but i attempt myself to do this letter to write everytime you came say Hi to me on my dreams. I learned how to write from you

It's been a very hard times since you never come back again, i do stuff by myself, like watching DVDs, Karaoke, Shopping, and i even have no one to text with. My life becomes a great hole of boredom. I miss our long convos, the way we sneak out at night just to talk on the phone, haha yeah those moments is precious.

Yah (It's your short name, the closest one always calling you with that name) but i never really asked if you love that name or not, though some people calling you with "Nad" or "Yaya". But i always calling you "Yah" so deal with it, teehee. It's been so long since you passed away. everything is changing here, i never really get in touch with your family members again, blame it on me and my personality disorders. But i always afraid that i'm gonna interrupting them or something. Our Girls is now all married and having kids, except me. And they all now is nowhere to be found, like the world has swollen them all. They're never trying to contact me even though i always trying to find them. They're now have a private life to manage, so i understand. Everyone's change. So am i. 

I remember the other night , that you came to my dreams, we have a great time at our old school with the uniforms and shit. I was about to tell you a secret, and then i woke up. And it making me devastated. I hate waking up to reality, what's the point of reality when i don't have you in there? I always loves it when i had a dreams and you always appeared like you never died or leave, like you never ride your motorcycle that afternoon, like you just got back from a very long journey to see me. And i don't know why, but i always offering myself to pick you up anywhere you want to go, like i don't wanna lose you again this time, like.. i'll be the one who guided you so no one could harmed you. or i always said "Keep in touch" or "Text me, and i'll call you right away". Yeah i don't wanna those dreams to be ended too soon. I still wanna talk to you, i still wanna hold your hands, i still wanna hang out with you. Why can't i have this kinda dreams more often? is that too much to ask?

And last night, i dreamed about you again, twice. And soon as i woke up this morning, i feel this sorrow on my chest, but i can not even cry anymore. I just wanna live in my own dreams to find you every night. I change, ok. I hate reality, i used to be the one who always crashed someone's daydream because there's no point of dreaming. I was so mean back then. And now i hate reality, it sucks! You can't have people you love in reality. Because the nice one always leave first. And they're know live in mortal world called "Dreams". 

Yah, i miss you. You're the one who talked to me using English so no one would understand the conversation. because the conversation is ours. Some friends i have is always contact me whenever they want or whenever they need something. But i'm okay with that. Cuz you taught me how to accept people who came to your life, no matter what. but, still i miss you.

I shut myself, maybe because i'm afraid that i might lose them again if they became closer to me. I don't wanna have those pain again, i don't wanna be break down again. So, when people trying to be close to me, i gave them the distance. I just don't wanna be in the same page of misery again in my life. 

Yah, You're now in a better place. I know. We don’t have bedroom windows that face each other, we’ve never sat out under the stars talking about where we are going with our lives, we’ve never been mischievous together, but to me, you are the proverbial best friends forever. A friend who tells me things, and who lets me tell her things. A friend whose happiness makes me smile and whose sorrows make me ache.  

We have shared our hopes together, and our weaknesses, and you got to know my secret because I wanted you to - more than just about anyone. 

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Good time in Jogjakarta

Well hello there

After a couple of weeks spending my time doing some project and have a little chill at home, i finally decided to posting my short vacation in Jogjakarta. I'm in love with this city, SERIOUSLY--like a lot. It's not my first time flying to Jogja, i was spending 5 days at Jogja last year with my Mum and my Boyfriend.

And after working hard this year , i collect some money to booked ticket and having an amazing time on Jogja with my Boyfriend.

Lucky you, all the rich kids with rich parents who always be there when you need some cash for travelling, you should be grateful. Because, i worked very hard to have this amount of money for Travelling.

In last year vacation , i only spent time around Malioboro and Candi Prambanan because we don't rent a car , no tour guide, and not really familiar with the maps of this city. And this year , some Boyfriend's mates are help us with direction and they let us borrow their Motorcycle which i think its pretty awesome because we can travelling so much in Jogja Street. 

Unlike last year trip , this year we decided to visits some historical building such a Vredeburg, and some Museums. My Boyfriend Nationalism spirit is higher than a mountain, except me. He is having a deep feeling with Historical thingies in Jogjakarta. Its coincidence that we're still in Jogja on Independence Day.

The first day in Jogja , we booked two rooms in Indonesia Hotel , and it so close to Malioboro. Its in Sasrowijayan Street, i'm having a great time in this street because A LOT of handsome foreigners (or bilang aja BULE) , maybe its because there are two famous Pub at this street, and so many hotel. From the cheapest one until the Luxurious one. I was stayed in this street too last year. In Virgo Hotel.
Indonesia Hotel is unique and simple. It has two separated bed in there, one bathroom and a very beautiful rooftop for drying your loundry , LOL. but its seriously the nicest place , every staff is so friendly and funny.

At night , we go out until 2AM just to spend a night in Jogja street , trying the local foods, and sitting around just to chill and enjoy the cold night air. It was the best feeling in the world, Just chilling.

Yogyakarta,is a popular destination for both domestic and international tourists. It’s a special region located in the island of Java. The city is full of five stars hotels to comfort your sleep, top notch services to ease your travel, a haven for the shopping fanatics and fancy restaurants to satisfy your tongue--Stop right there!

Yes all those mouth-watering offers might let you enjoy Yogyakarta, but the best way to embrace the city is to do what the locals do. So, leave your five stars hotel slippers and abandon the fancy taxi, get on a becak instead and I’ll show you why I fell in love with this city in the first place.

 A beautiful park inside Vredeburg

The first is :
The Tradition

“The Special Region of Jogjakarta”.

It gives me the goosebumps everytime i imagine myself in this special place , in a good way. I always wanna live in this city.. Its just so Special because it is governed by a Sultan which is equivalent to a king with its own palace.

Special because it has an active volcano called the Merapi mountain as well as the legendary famous beach Parangtritis which is filled with myths. Being special also means clouded with hundreds of rituals and traditions which is relatively normal to the locals but excitingly fascinating for travellers.

The way to get to know the people of Jogjakarta is through its traditions.

The territory of the Sultan is quite big, including the Tamansari water palace where it was once a place to bath and relax for the Sultan.We visit this place , and it is very very beautiful , and one of the tour guide (he offering himself for an hour tour) took us to the top place through the Cyber Village to enjoy local culture. Near there, also lays two big fields with two old trees being separated several metres. They say that if you close your eyes and is able to walk between the trees, anything you ask will be given. It is not unusual to feel an eerie aura when you are here.Me and boyfriend even tried this , we do this for twice because i really wanna make it through it. haha but i failed, and my boyfriend did success once. 

The intriguing traditions are one of the main reasons why I love this city. When I think I know it all there is always something new I learn to enrich my knowledge on Jogjakarta.

The second is :
The People

Last but certainly not least. The people of Jogjakarta are known to be friendly and helpful. As the city is used to tourists, most sellers and people in the transportation systems understand the basic English. They greatly appreciate the occasional greet in Indonesian by foreigners and an even more bigger grin when you can speak a little Javanese. 

What I love is that you can totally create a random conversation with almost everyone.

A short story , we once wanna taking a picture together under the Tugu , but we don't have a Tripod , so we ask for a guy who sits next to us for a help.

"Mas tolong fotoin kami boleh gak?" Said my boyfriend. The guy with glasses stand up and hold our camera , but he's mumbling and it sounds like..

"Wait , how to use this camera?" I was looking at my boyfriend's red face because we DON'T KNOW he was a tourist , and by his look and how short he is, you can tell that this guy is absolutely look like the normal handsome Indonesian guy.

And after a lil bit shocking , he finally took our picture together, with an awkward smile, my boyfriend says "Thank you very much" and the guy just kindly says "Yeah, sure.. here , have look" While giving our camera. And he is a British guy, i know from that strong accents.

but yeah , haha that was pretty intense that night , my boyfriend feel a little bit embarassed by calling the tourist guy with "Mas"

Tugu at night, so many people around

Here's a little snapshot of my boyfriend :)

I love this city. Everything about Jogja is just soooooo amazing. The People, The food , The cultures, the myths , even the Street Musician who always look confident and talented, The Graffiti in some street , The chaos in the Traditional Market "Beringharjo" , The Andong , The Becak , The Horse and his shoes, the Air (especially the morning air) , the fresh and clean environment, The Tourists , The street, and how long you have to wait for the Red Light (Half an hour stop)..etc.

I made my boyfriend promise to me , that one day , we're gonna live in this city. Raises our kids together in Jogja's Fresh Air, and spent our lifetime together. He also really love this city , and i swear to god , i almost cried when we're on our way back to home, because i'm sooooo deeply in love with Jogjakarta.

See you next time , Jogja :)

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