The pain that i feel always keep me awake at night.
Anxiety disorders yang selalu datang di saat badanku sudah lelah dan ingin istirahat di malam hari.
Everything just dissapear when it comes and hit me at night all the left is fear, anxious, cold body and i keep sweating
Kindly remember that i ate too much medicine this year so NO! I'm not gonna be ok with any drugs
All i need is therapist. Not a stranger but someone i already knew like my mom, friends , lover and God.
Pernah beberapa kali hampir kehilangan nafas karena penyakit yang satu ini. Sering menggigil dan sesak nafas. Bingung cara nyembuhin nya gimana. Aku gak terlalu berani nyoba obat kampung , dan terlalu lelah dengan pengobatan medis.
Aku gak seharusnya berpikir terlalu banyak, pasti si anxiety datang mengganggu! Aarrghhh
Thats why one of therapist suggest me to write or do anything with any social media to reduce the stress and pressure. But twitter wont help me that well lately. It making me more depressed instead.
So whoever knows me well must be know that i sometimes talking too much, don't avoid me! I just can't control this anxiety sometimes, and i'm way too sensitive. Everyone near me seems like they're depressed too sometimes. Well, i'm sorry ... That's not my intention to do anything that i've done.
Susah banget buat coba tidur di malam hari, semua pikiran-pikiran datang dan membuatku cemas kemudian sulit bernafas. Keringat dingin dan paranoid berlebihan, mama kadang sampai bingung kalau aku lagi kambuh .
Kecemasan berlebihan ku sudah tidak manusiawi.
I'm rude
Some whom never close with me would be agree with that.
But it's not because i do it because i want it.. I just don't know how to interact with some strangers and a new person
I can't deal with any crowds. Apalagi liat orang demo besar-besar an. Jantung rasanya mau copot dan oksigen di sekitar mendadak ilang. Pernah tiap ke mall kalau gak bareng si pacar tercinta, pasti selalu gelisah dan awkward. Cuz i mostly don't know the people around me and it's too crowded.
Pkonya harus ada 1 orang yang bener-bener bisa mengalihkan aku dari kerumunan manusia di mall . Fiuuuhh susah memang berteman dengan penderita anxiety disorder sepertiku.
Sekali bisa temenan, cuma bisa klop sama satu orang doang
Dan terlalu percaya sama siapapun, sampe kadang ga bisa membedakan yang mana yang beneran temen.
Kadang malas bikin joke, karena pasti garing banget jadinya.
Alhamdulillah sekarang udah mulai bisa interaksi sedikit-sedikit sama orang yang bahkan belum dikenal sekalipun.
I wish i could be like a normal-average people :'(
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