Simply because I'm Happy

By: A.i on Wednesday, May 28, 2014

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Almost 3 months since I moved out from my comfort zone , And everything is going on very well. This makes me thinking what if I'm not taking my opportunity from the very first time? What if I'm too afraid to leave my comfort zone? I'm not gonna be as happy as I am right now.

Things changed pretty fast than I ever thought.
I was dreaming about my old friend back when I was in college. Its so good to catching up with her again since the last time we spoke like 1 half a years ago. Maybe that dream trying to give a messages for me to searching out of her. Or no. I'm not sure , I didn't got the invitiation on her wedding like she promised me before. Thats when I know I don't have a role anymore in her life.
Woah, its so sad to know the person who used to be your best buddies become a stranger. I never heard anything from her since then.

While I'm getting over it , I'm trying to get myself together to start a new life without worrying about people who being so evil behind my back. That's where they belong. behind me. So I'm gonna move forward leaving all the bad memories behind with past. Though its good or bad.

I start to love my job, its anything that I could dream of. The people, the pressure , the laughs when we got nothing to do, the silent , the faults , horrible boss, and stuff. It somehow help me to keep walking to the future in front of me , it helps me to fight my depression. So I'm in love with my job.

I keep losing friends , that's fine. I only have the best one, and God keep her safe in heaven. I regret nothing. All of these people, who called themselves "a friend" always come and go in my life like there's a big door to another dimension , so anyone could come whenever they need something from me. Its such a shame they don't know who lifted them when they don't have anyone to make them happy when they're down. Its funny I always be sort of "sweet escape" from their reality. When they need to get away from their home, they knock on my door, when they need someone to hear their shittiest life story, they call on me, when they need some money, they trying so hard to reach on me, when they need someone to cover up their secrets, I'm the one who always there to keep it safe.
Its good, right? It means they can count on me, I'm being a good friend. But at the end of the day, when they life finally getting much better, when their dumb boyfriend is begging them for another chance , or when they new friends is cooler than me, Without hesitation and not even a single alert , THEY FUCKING DITCH ME. awesome. All these people do, is just Awesome!

I became invisible again.

But yeah at least this time, I know where I stand. These people can suck their own sad sad tears when karma kicks them on the head. Because I don't give a shit.

Its too bad, some of them is just a good people. (Or I thought they were)

I never been this happy in my life (not a sarcasm) its like the weight is finally got lifted from my shoulder , I feel ... Infinite.
All of the bad people has gone, and I knew this is a new start of living the life. I start cook again, craft a little bit, and dance to an old school music. Its good ya know , to let it all go. Like a newborn baby, I learn step by step to be happy again. Though I never go across a country, attend a huge party, or in a gigs, I know my life would be just fine after all. And that's enough , I don't have to feel anxious anymore.

I feel good. This is what God has promised me since the first my heart got broken for a fucking friendship. The good feeling at the end of the tunnel.

So guys, if you have this mean people in your life, don't let them step on your life like its belong to them. Stand up for yourself and leave all the bad things behind. Then you'all probably feel like everything is finally gonna get better for you . trust me :)