I was drowned in my own tears last night, depression and anxiety hits me a lot this weekend and i have no idea how small things can be a trigger. Depression is a word I hear thrown around day-in and day-out nowadays.
Struggling in my bed, throwing stuff and hugging my pillow so tight. Its so hard to breath when you're in a depression.
I keep run my fingers to my tangled hair, i can't think!
I wish i could run, stop the time and just me in a blunt space of silence. And now i can't even know what to write here. The suicidal thoughts came to me and it keep haunts me in the day after.
When I had a bad day or depressed for certain reasons yes I cry at night. It is my private time to be alone and let it all out..no one bothers to comfort me and see me cry than myself.
When I had a bad day or depressed for certain reasons yes I cry at night. It is my private time to be alone and let it all out..no one bothers to comfort me and see me cry than myself.
I hate the puffy eyes in the morning, so today i decided to have a day off or whatever. Just to spend sometimes being alone in my room or just secretly crying because i hate myself too much lately. I probably hiding myself too much, not even bother to shares what i've been through with anyone but blogger.
Sometimes when they say "Whatever, its up to you" making me depressed even more. Whatever is not a solution, i can't find the answer to my problems in "Whatever"
I guess, they just don't understand.
Depression is the worst. You can be so happy one second and then the next you just get sad instantly. It is a constant battle between moods daily. It's me wanting to get better and be healthy to me wanting to cut every part of my body. It's absolutely terrible!
Depression is the worst. You can be so happy one second and then the next you just get sad instantly. It is a constant battle between moods daily. It's me wanting to get better and be healthy to me wanting to cut every part of my body. It's absolutely terrible!
ugh
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